Dear Diary,
Wow!! its seems like 1 month... yea, i've not update my blog or should i say i've not go on the net for 1 month. really miss my blog.. sorry ya! din sentuh u for so long... miz me?? haha.. guess wat, its 2007 now, SPM !!! but eventhough i knew how important how SPM is, but at times, if it belongs to you, its still yours.. our life depends on how God wants us to walk, but not for us to decide.
On the very 1st day of 2007, i've just promise to myself tat i'll stop TV, cut down most of my time hanging out with friends in shopping centers.. and of cz MSN. My major aim to do so is to put more time into my studies, and try to score well in SPM. I don't know wat other ppl think of me, but i myself always have a super high aim in my life that is to suceed in everything. ya ya ya... humans always said that no one is perfect, and no one can be perfect in the 3 factors(academic, co-curiculum, sports).. but olden ppl do say that there is no such thing as light bulb. GUESS WAT ??!!! Thomas Edison proves that the word "possible" exists in this world. He creates light bulb and its used by everyone now. Thats why, one of my friend said that i'm over ambitious, because i wanted to achieve that 3 factor. she said that its impossible, but too me, i might prove to her that its possible to do so. I can't admit that i'm super good in sports, neither studies or co-curiculum, but i can admit to myself and say it loudly that i'm proud with my achievement in sports and co-curiculum. I'm now a state level ping pong player, and i represent Kuala Lumpur. As for co-curiculum, I represented Malaysia last Christmas to Hong Kong. . to me, its been a vy vy vy great achievement. What i need to do now is to gambate in my studies.
ya, studies is the only thing i'm not really satisfy with..( actually i wanted to go furthur in my sports and co-curiculum.. but i need to balance 3 of it first..hehe!) i wanted so badly to concentrate in studies but something POPs out so suddenly that i have to change all my plan. I was promoted to be the Ketua Unit of Pandu, and of cz the Katua Pasukan of SMKSS ping pong team. Its looks easy to be a Katua Pasukan, but i dare u to try it for once. Ur resting time will be triple less compare to odinary students. For those who are holding so many pose and taking state level thing like me.. i bet u un that the training session is so packed that u'll nvr think of TV or Comp..
WOW!!! sometimes i'll jz tell myself that :" work harder whenever u can still work hard, b'cz u won't noe starting at which moment u will stop workking forever, and u'll regret for the rest of ur life. " ... yea, i do really comfort myself through words, cz all of my friends can still relax relax, where else i'm doing, working, and sometimes, i use to think that i'm working as a fool.. why can't i jz relax like others??... am i doing the wrong decision? should i let go off my sports so that i don't need to go for so much training? i'm always questioning myself till this moment as i type this passage of feelings... thinking of what is the main purpose i'm doing all this? am i really doin thing i shouldn't do?.... still thinking....
Sunday, January 28, 2007
wat exactly am i doin?? should i stop??
